I See Fire

" Desolation comes upon the sky "

I just watched the new Hobbits yesterday, The Hobbit - The Desolation of Smaug.

The movie was great as i expected and more.

Fun, tense, and as always top recommended.

But the best part of this movie is in the end, when the title credit was shown.

The music is really something.

So today, i did my googling task finding that song.

And i found it: I See Fire by Ed Sheeran.

But the best of the best part is, i found the remix version in the search.

And the remix version was something.

I am having the best eargasm moment.

This is from la belle musique, french always know how to make everything sound better. La belle musique means beautiful music.
And the tagline was just right, taste your paradise.
This is I See Fire by Ed Sheeran but in Kygo Remix.
The remix bring justice to this song.
Take the song to the next level, make it tens even hundreds times better than the original. I just can stop listening to it.
My ears are having the best pleasure it can gets.

" If this is to end in fire

Then we should all burn together

Watch the flames climb high into the night

Calling our father hold stand by and we will

Watch the flames burn over on

The mountain side

And if we should die tonight

We should all die together

Raise a glass of wine for the last time

Calling out father

Prepare as we will

Watch the flames burn auburn on

The mountain side "

Read more: Ed Sheeran - I See Fire Lyrics | MetroLyrics 

Sweet Heaven on Earth

One of the greatest thing i found in my life is a good food beyond words.
I order this cake

It is called Mango Passion Praline Crunch

I bought it at Mid Town Owl at Central Park, a cool place to hang out.
You can check their website: http://midtownowl.com 

And, this is one of the best cake i ever taste in my entire life.

One of the best thing i ever found and have in my life.. Ahahahahahaha..

It is like a piece of sweet heaven taste on earth.

This cake is too perfect to be real and from this world.

If i don't restrain myself i could eat the whole cake alone, and i will happily die in cholesterol and diabetes.

And i will enter a heaven full of those sour-sweet delicate smooth cake with refine layers which each layers contain its own story of joyful and happiness that easily melts with love and a bit of crunch that make everything brighter in each bite.

Oh heaven, such a tender mouth watering cake.

You should try!!! A very super duper recommended..!!!

You will feel God's love in this heavenly cake, trust me.. Ahahahahhahahaa..

Painted Grey

" The color of truth is gray "

- Andre Gide -

Life and day fly by so fast these days.
And i skip a whole month without write anything or post something.
I need to spend more me time instead of sleeping and playing around without purpose.
In these busy world, i make some time to eventually dye my hair again.
This time i was madly in love with some sort of gray ash color.
It was since i saw this picture :

It was nice, so different, simple but yet edgy at some point.

It took me 7 hours at the salon, do the extreme bleaching which turn my hair into blonde.

And after that 7 hours, i still not get the color i want, i need to get back again the next day to put more color to match my wish.

The funny thing is, as usual it draws attention from a lot of people, and my co-workers even called me oma.

Since it was so white in the beginning before i retouch and dye it again.

But now, i quite happy with my hair color.

" Don't define your world in black and white, because there is so much hiding amongst the greys. "

- Anonymous -

Setapak Sriwedari

Just found this great music today, and I cannot help myself but sharing it.
This is from one of my favorite artist, with lyrics that is out of this world, beyond beautiful, so amazingly poetic. I madly in love in seconds after hear it.
Haven't fell so much in love with a song in for God sake i don't remember how long time ago.
Please enjoy and be in love with this, as I cannot stop listening to this.

OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO OF MALIQ & D'ESSENTIALS 1st SINGLE "SETAPAK SRIWEDARI"
FROM THEIR NEWEST ALBUM "SRIWEDARI" IN STORES NOW!
Directed By Candi Soeleman
For more info follow @MaliqMusic

LYRICS:

Lihat langit di atas selepas hujan reda dan kau lihat pelangi

Seperti kau di sini hadirkan sriwedari dalam surga duniawi

Dan kita berpijak lalu kau merasakan yang sama sepertiku

Reff 1:

Suara hati kita bergema melantunkan nada-nada

Melagu tanpa berkata

Seperti syair tak beraksara

Lihat fajar merona memandangi kita seakan tau cerita

Tentang semua rasa yang ingin kita bawa tanpa ada rahasia

Dan kita melangkah untuk lebih jauh lagi lebih jauh lagi

Reff 2:

Suara hati kita bergema melantunkan nada-nada

Melagu tanpa berkata

Seperti syair tak beraksara

Bridge 1:

Setapak di taman sriwedari

Setapak sriwedari denganmu

Dan kita berpijak lalu kita melangkah untuk lebih jauh lagi lebih jauh lagi

Reff 3:

Suara hati kita bergema melantukan nada-nada

Melagu tanpa berkata

Irama hati kita bernada merayu tanpa bicara

Melagu tanpa berkata

Bridge 2:

Seperti syair tak beraksara

Seperti puisi tanpa rima

Seperti aku padamu

(Setapak sriwedari denganmu)

Seperti itu aku padamu

(Setapak sriwedari denganmu)

Seperti itu aku padamu

Thank you for fantastic music that colour my day. Cheers.. ^^

Sometimes

Sometimes, I just want to go out there, run wild and be free.

Be ignorant, don’t care of others, and have a self-center selfish life.

Sometimes, I let my mind go away and not thinking about anything.

No burden, no conscious.

Sometimes, I wish I have no obligation.

Just do whatever i wanted to do without consequences.

Sometimes, I pray to be young forever, like a child and never get old.

Be careless, and have fun, without need to worry about what tomorrow might come.

Sometimes, I like to live in the moment.

Just be adventurous, living on the edge, not having second thought on anything.

And sometimes, sometimes is just not enough.

I Don't Effing Know

I just don't know.
Don't know what to do.
Don't know what to say.
Don't know what to think.
Don't know what to feel.
I don't know for God sake.

Should i know something when there is nothing for me to know?
Is it possible?

Where can i look to search for an answer?
How can i find when there is no sign at all?
What can i do when there is no one to ask to?
This is too much. This is too tiring.

I DON'T EFFING KNOW..!!!

I hate this eerie feeling.
Please go, never come back.
And leave me alone.
Thank you very much.
Bye!

In the Middle of the Night

Waking up from a dream
As the moon is set high above the earth
Where the darkest hour is brightly shinning
And silent is the only sound in time
The cold wind blows, embracing every inch of frame
Alone with melancholy
Lonely heart searching for warmth touch
Aching from distant memory
Longing of love
The perfect moment when lonesome is unbearable
Oh my dear night
My sweet taste of night
Why?
Why in the middle of night?
Why in the middle of the night, i remember you?

Flying and Thinking

Human is created by God with no ability of flying.
But we are created with the much more greater ability.
A mind beyond any imagination as tools to surpasses our limitation.
And with this ability we are proven to do the impossible.
Like flying, even to the moon.

I think, flying is a gift from God.
He wanted us to take a peek on His perceptive.
Seeing the world from above,
and imagine how that is the way God always look to us.
Me, myself always believe that heaven and God are all above us,
up up up in the high high high sky.
And when i am high in the sky, looking above.
It makes me think about how magnificent is our world.
It reminds me of how big is our world, and how small we are.
We are such an insignificant creature living and sharing this world resources.
But so many times we forget about it,
and think that we are the king of the universe,
and all things evolve around us.
And flying, looking down like that, really always a great reminder.

The scenery is always took my breath away.
When in day, you can see clear blue sky, soft white puffy clouds.
Divided by the horizon far blue gradient sea unfolds.
The landscape with different view, busy city, small green village,
high mighty mountain, rivers, and many more.
When in night, it was spectacularly romantic, my favorite view of all time.
The city lights from above is really something magical.
I can never imagine how is it possible for such small lights join forces with each others, and suddenly boom, it can create that amazing scene.
I try to lock my eyes to that sight as long as is it possible.
Because when that sight gone, as far as you can see, all is black,
a total darkness.

In a flights some people choose to sleep, some try to catch on their reading.
I might be one of those reading people if i can but, i sadly can not.
It always make me dizzy when i read in a journey, what a waste for me.
Either it by land, sea, or even sky. Any type of journey.
Car, train bus, ship, plane.. Hhh.. Its irritated me a lot.
I hate that fact about me. I love read, but why i cannot read on a long long journey.
And some choose to watch movie if they can, or playing games.
Or chat, or just plug on their ear and listen to the music.
What about me? I just go with the flow.

But for me the other best thing about flying (other than that ecstatic eyegasm view)
is that moment of solitude.
The best flight for me is night time, seating by the window, alone with no one else beside me in the entire row.
I take out my ipod, choose the music suit to my mood, and then plug my ears.
The moment the music start, i shut down the whole world.
And for the rest of the flight.
I can have a moment for myself, a moment to talk heart to heart, mind to mind, heart to mind, mind to heart with myself.
And in between those talk, God sometimes join the conversation.
And those peaceful precious moment was the best for me.
Up in the air it was different than lock yourself on room, or taking bath for God knows how many hours, or any private moment you usually have.
No one can bother you, and nothing can distract you.
Because you can do nothing but sit down, and wait for the landing.
Instead of doing something you can do in a ground, do something hard to do, talk to your inner-self, take that time to reflect.
And without notice, time just go by easily, fly as fast as your plane travel.
Yourself is the best discussion buddy, the greatest listener, sometimes the worse adviser, but you can always be true to yourself.
No need to hide anything, and he/she is the best person to know you inside out.

And suddenly, you see a view again from the window.
And you know, your time is almost up.
Enjoying the God's gift for one tiny little time, absorbing the view,
while keep trying to save all the thought that was born on that flight.
When the plane landed, the first time its tire hit the ground.
It always with a great bump, to shake you of day dreaming.
And take you by force to face the reality.
That is, in my opinion, God's way to slap us.
To always remind to keep our feet on the ground.
You may and should sometimes look up to the sky search for hope,
but when you already are up there, never let you forgot to look down,
and see how tiny you are, and how you used to see the world before.
But we people must know well our place.
Earth is our home, earth is our ground.
Dream as high as the sky, but be humble as down as the earth.

" Once you have tasted flight, you will forever walk the earth with your eyes skyward, for there you have been, and there you will always long to return. "

- Leonardo da Vinci -

The Silent

" There are nights when the wolves are silent

and only the moon howls "
- George Carlin -

Jakarta is a very busy city.
As a capital of Indonesia, it is one of those places that never sleep.
I was born and raised in Jakarta.
Growing in this kind of situation making the noise is your best-friend.
From the sunrise to sunset to sunrise again.
It was never can be a moment of silent.

And now, I am in Bali.
A very different environment from where i used to live.
Bali for some people is like heaven on earth.
So peaceful and tranquil.
Especially at night, in this area i stay, near Sanur, Sesetan, it is a very deserted.
It is so quite, with barely any noise out there.

For some people silent moment is a precious thing.
Some found peace in the silent.
Some again found brilliant ideas in the silent.
But for me, i am not a fan of full high level silent since i am not used to it.
For me, silent seems so lonesome.
It makes me feel terribly lonely.
And lonely lead to sad.

Silent is good, even people said from time to time that silent is a gold.
But i can not imagine myself surround by the total silent.
It is what deaf people dealing everyday.
If you share the silent with someone else next to you.
I can see the magic in it, it seems very sweet indeed.
But when you are by yourself, alone, i can not bare the silent.
It feels like it slowly kills me from inside.
So, instead being drown by the silent, i make noise.
Turn on the TV, listen to the music, or do anything with sound surround me.
Or rather, i go to sleep.
If the night is getting very late.
And the silent is very good for sleeping.

So good night everybody out there.
Lets all have a sleep well, and a sweet sweet dreams.
And let us all be silent by the sleep.
Enjoy the silent, enjoy the night.

Ask, Seek, Knock

" So I say to you, ask and keep on asking and it shall be given to you; seek and keep on seeking and you shall find; knock and keep on knocking and the door shall be opened to you. For everyone who asks and keeps on asking receives; and he who seeks and keeps on seeking finds; and to him who knocks and keeps on knocking, the door shall be opened. What father among you, if his son asks for a loaf of bread, will give him a stone; or if he asks for a fish, will instead of a fish give him a serpent? Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? If you then, evil as you are, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask and continue to ask Him! "

Luke 11 :  9 - 13

My Sweet Little Oasis

" Reality depresses me.

I need to find fantasy worlds and escape in them. "

- Noel Fielding -

One of the reason i make this blog is for an escape.. My sweet sweet escape..
Escape from the rest of the world to find a peace of mind..
In this little oasis of my own..
This is an escape from reality where i can put my heart and my mind on something else other than what i have to deal in real world.
I can take some quality time to just erase all those unimportant nonsense.
And just for several minute focus on something i love.
In my oasis there is no place for worries.
I don't need to think about all that job-office-work-task related, i can forget my trouble for a nice moment, i don't need to stress on my relationship, i can relax about the future, and just have a moment for myself.
Like for instance today, doing a short quickie happy me time on this daily basic sort of boring office hours.
Instead of i wasting my time, waiting in vain on the clock to move a lil' bit faster toward the end of this day, i choose to spend my time here, writing about maybe something not so important but soothing me..
Writing this blog is like breathing in a fresh air.
But actually, it also feels like i'm cheating on an exam, a time corruption maybe.
But i don't really care.
From time to time, i think people need to take a short vacation on a busy day.
Only for the sake for better brain function.
Just take me for an example, placing myself surrounding by what i love the most, pouring down some emotion, and idea.
And i love it, i love my oasis.
I can feel the burst of joy in my heart every time i let myself free to chase my passion.
Free to let my mind go wild, and fly in a journey to immortality between words..

“Writing is a form of therapy; sometimes I wonder how all those who do not write, compose, or paint can manage to escape the madness, melancholia, the panic and fear which is inherent in a human situation.” 

― Graham Greene, Ways Of Escape ―

To be alone and die

" We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone.

Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion

for the moment that we're not alone. "

-  Orson Welles  -

A few days ago a family of mine is passed away.

I called her Ipo.

She was one of my grandma siblings, who live alone in France.

I wasn't that close to her since she lived distant and only come by once from time to time. So i rarely meet her.

But one thing that make me ponder is how sad and tragic the way she's gone.

She was living alone, all by herself in a far away land.

Doesn't have any children, and her husband already passed long time before her.

Far from his family and any close relative.

She was found died, after my Kukong (my grandma and ipo's brother) tried to reach her by phone but getting no answer, tried again next day and still could not reach her.

And then we asked someone to come and check on her.

That is when we found her already passed away.

My uncle said that she was fall on her bathroom and possibly having a heart attack.

Her body was finally found after 3 days.

To imagine someone who is a close relative to me having this kind of tragedy,
is something so sad.

I hope nobody else would have to face this in her/his lives.

To have someone there in every part of your live is a bless that i hope everyone can share the same joy.
No one deserve to be alone and die in such circumstances, by any reason.

This video is a lyrical dance,
taken from Bunheads: Season 1, Episode 13 "I'll Be Your Meyer Lansky"

I watched it very recently and it touched me deeply.

The song is from Erin Mckeown "You, Sailor"

Choreography by Marguerite Derricks.

Ipo, you'll always be alive, in our loving memory.

Love, Anger, Sad, and Cry

There is a moment in each person life, when they meet what we called love.
But how could something as great and beautiful as love could be defeated easily by anger.
How could you fall in love with a person in one time, and get so mad at them at another time.
Where all the love is gone?
Anger is something so small and shallow, it should be easily overcome by love.
When you love, you should feel an enormous feeling of care and affection.
Would you let your love feel sad and cry because of your anger?
Anger lead to nowhere but sad.
Totally in an opposite direction of love and its happiness.
I still haven't find a way to round up my thoughts around this.
Is it possible that all the love is just burn down by the fire of anger.
And the fire of your love is fade away by each tears come from those sadness.
I hope that love will always win.
And no more anger, sad and cry would have to come.

Question of the day

Urat malu gampang putus

Urat malas kenapa susah diputus ya?

Zen Pencils

" Zen Pencils adapts inspirational quotes into cartoons.

It's illustrated by Gavin Aung Than

and there's a new toon every Tuesday. "

This in one of the site that i often visit from time to time.
A combination of two things that i favor the most, creative illustrations and great words.
The quotes was taken from many famous people of the world.
Reading the quotes are like having someone giving you advice about almost all aspect in life, love, family, friendship, even about our career, all in a more fun ways than just read a collection of quotes in regular book.
You can see and feel the words are alive in each illustration he made.
Each page is a motivation on many subject, such as staying true to your heart, embracing your freedom, keeping your spirit up, reminding you of good value in life, encouraging you to pursue your dreams, making you passionate for better living, doing something great, enjoying each and every moments of your life, and many more.
Mostly the quotes are about dream, courage, kindness, peace, art, taking chances, life to fullest, breaking through, hard work, struggle, and most important is about happiness.
In the end this site want to teach and share something so we could see things differently with better perception.
Very inspiring, i enjoy myself reading it and never get bored even i already read the same one before.
Please visit it at http://zenpencils.com.
Let us all find the best of our-self, inspire other around us to be better, and be happy together.

Clarity

" Cause you are the piece of me, I wish I didn’t need

Chasing relentlessly, still fight and I don’t know why

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?

If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity? "

Zedd ft. Foxes - Clarity

I'm in love (again)

Today i found something that make me fall in love again..
No, it is not a person. It is word.
I'm in love with how beautiful they stood next to each other and dance in a sentence.
And how the sentences make a magical performance.
As i was watching the most spectacular show.
A smile rise in my face, my heart is overwhelmed by this feeling.
I'm deeply in love and fascinated by how wonderful it could be.
No standing applause can feed and satisfy my desire.
I need to tell the whole world.
I need to share this love.
I'm in love.. I'm madly falling in love..
Read this, and be in love with me..

surat cinta yang ganjil

1. cintaku yang besar, cintaku yang tulus,
 2. telah hilang, menguap, dan kini rasa benciku
 3. berkembang setiap hari. ketika melihatmu,
 4. aku tak ingin lagi melihat wajahmu sedikitpun;
 5. satu hal yang sungguh ingin aku lakukan adalah
 6. mengalihkan mata ke gadis lain. aku tak lagi mau
 7. menikahkan aku-kau. percakapan terakhir kita
 8. sungguh, sungguh amat membosankan dan tak
 9. membuat aku ingin bertemu kau sekali lagi.
 10. selama ini, kau selalu memikirkan diri sendiri.
 11. jika kita menikah, aku tahu aku akan menemu
 12. hidupku jadi sulit, dan kita tak akan menemu
 13. bahagia hidup bersama. aku punya satu hati
 14. untuk kuberikan, tapi itu bukan sesuatu
 15. yang ingin aku beri buatmu. tiada yang lebih
 16. bodoh dan egois dari kau, kau tak pernah
 17. memerhatikan, merawat dan mengerti aku.
 18. aku sungguh berharap kau mau mengerti
 19. aku berkata jujur. kau akan baik sekali jika
 20. kau anggap inilah akhirnya. tidak perlulah
 21. membalas surat ini. surat-suratmu dipenuhi
 22. hal-hal tak menarik bagiku. kau tak punya
 23. cinta yang tulus. sampai jumpa. percayalah,
 24. aku tak peduli padamu. jangan pernah berpikir
 25. aku masih dan akan terus menjadi kekasihmu.

catatan:
 tiap baris surat ini sengaja diberi angka, agar kau
 bisa membedakan baris ganjil dan baris genap.
 baca baris-baris ganjil saja, hapus baris selebihnya.
 sesungguhnya, ini sehelai surat cinta yang ganjil.

Written by : M. Aan Mansyur
Take from his blog : http://hurufkecil.wordpress.com/2012/05/22/puisi-puisi-cinta-ini-berharap-bisa-memeluk-kamu-segera/

There is tons of other great work from him.
I know him first time from his short story "Di Tempatmu Berbaring Sekarang" in "Dari Datuk ke Sakura Emas". And later i found his book "Kukila", and today as searching for inspiration i don't know how, i stumble upon his page
http://hurufkecil.wordpress.com.
And i can not get myself back into work.
For the rest of my day, i was lost in his wor(l)d.
And this specific piece of art "Surat Cinta yang Ganjil" is the one that captivated my heart the most.
Thank you Mr. Aan Mansyur for making my day better and full of love today!

Geeky Bunny

Please meet the geeky bunny

A cheerful one

Hop around
Sniff pages of books
Snuggle and hide behind tons of movies

I need to made a new icon for myself..

And i am a proud bunny, so a bunny as an icon is a must.

I am in such a blessing that i born in the year of rabbit,
a great luck will always be with me.

Hope this icon will also bring me a greater luck.

Rabbit is such a cute and lovely creature, that i always adore.

But found myself maybe not as adorable as a real bunny is.

First, i am not fluffy, doesn't have soft cuddly warm fur.
And second i can assure you that i don't own any long ears.
My ears are perfectly normal size and still in a good condition.
I rather walk, and not hop.
But I can also make myself run only when i am in life threatening danger situation.
No cute small round tail. Cute small eyes i hope. ^^
The only thing that i have in common is a chubby tummy,
which i am still trying to turn it into a cool six pack awesome flat abs.

And with my glasses, i am blind without one. My poor poor eyes.. Hhh..

Slightly weird, a nice and good kind of weird.
I will quote what Charlie Askew said on American Idol season 12 " I glorify weirdness "
I don't like to be just an ordinary, i want to stand out, in a good way i hope.
I am not a shy person, as i have nothing to be shame of,
but maybe some people sometimes thinks that i tend to be embarrassing them.
Ahahahahahahahaha.. ^^
But i am a well trained, never pee and poo carelessly.
I promise to be nice, will not bite you.
Will play along with other.

Last but not least, it is nice to meet and know you all folks!

Cloud Atlas

" Our lives are not our own. From womb to tomb, we are bound to others. Past and present. And by each crime and every kindness, we birth our future. "

Do you belief in love, karma, destiny, and reincarnation?
If you do, i recommended you to please watch Cloud Atlas.
This movie is again, based from a 2004 novel by author David Mitchell.
The novel consist of 6 different stories, but connected to one another:

1. The Pacific Journal of Adam Ewing
2. Letters from Zedelghem
3. Half-Lives: The First Luisa Rey Mystery
4. The Ghastly Ordeal of Timothy Cavendish
5. An Orison of Sonmi~451
6. Sloosha's Crossin' an' Ev'rythin' After

You can read more detail of the novel and each story from wikipedia,
here is the link http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cloud_Atlas_(novel)

I just watched the movie a few days ago, at the last day of it's screening in Jakarta.
I feel contented that i compel more than anything for myself and my love to watch it as a must that day.
Despite the rain, the traffic, and the distance to go to an unknown studio we never been visit before.
Far far away in middle of nowhere, Metropole Cikini.

I've never seen anything like that before.
So complex, but connected, also beautiful and meaning full at the same time.
It was so different that people might think it will be difficult to digest and maybe boring.
But it is actually a fun movie, you can easily understand it, and enjoy it along the way to the end.
Really a must watch if you looking for something more, and already tired with the same regular Hollywood movies.

A movie from collaboration work of the maker of the very famous Matrix Trilogy, the Wachowskis and Tom Tykwer.
You can feel the Matrix atmosphere in this movie at some action sci-fi future scene.
I think the movie portrayed the novel in a very good way.
Combining and mash up all the six stories, with all the characters, but still be a one whole story that bound.
And made each great cast playing many different role, each one different role and different character in each story.
It is quite fun, guessing all along the movie, who is that, or waiting when will the cast appear, and who he/she will be.
So much great talents playing in this movie, my all time favorite Tom Hanks, along with Hugo Weaving, Jim Sturgess, Hugh Grant, Halle Berry, and many more.
The transition between one story to another story was smooth and good, it feels like flowing.
The visual also very beautiful, displaying the old and the future of our world.
The 3D effects, especially at the scenery is gorgeous.

After watching it, i really wonder what will it be if i read the book.
Will i have so much fun and understanding reading it?
Will i know that the character in one story is the reincarnation of the other character in other story?
It was easy to know in the movie because you can see the same actor playing different role.
But how can i understand that i the book only in word and without any picture?
I still can not wrap my head around that marvelous idea of a book in such a complicated plot.
I haven't found the book here, so maybe, i will buy it when i found one.

I, myself, is a true believer of love, true love and soulmate, as much as i believe in destiny, karma and reincarnation.
This movie remind me to always do good not only for myself, but for other also, it will bring you good karma. Not only for this life, but also for your next life, or just instead for you descendant sake.
If that is your destiny, than you will get there no matter what your path is, how long you have to go or how much time you take it, hard and easy, sad and joy, you will end up fulfilling your destiny.
And one true love in the past, will forever be a true love in another life, because he/she is your true soulmate.

" Fear. Belief. Love. Phenomena that determined the course of our lives. These forces begin long before we are born and continue after we perish. "

We've Got Tonight

"We've Got Tonight" (originally titled "We've Got Tonite") is a song written by American Bob Seger, from his 1978 album Stranger in Town.

But i personally like the version in 1983, country-pop star Kenny Rogers recorded the song as a duet with pop star Sheena Easton.

I choose this song because recently i heard it on Glee and i felt that this song is like a match made in heaven with my old work. Please listen to this song while you read.

Malam itu...

aku melihat dirimu dari kejauhan..

aku jalan perlahan.. aku hampiri dirimu..

kamu duduk sendirian..

aku bertanya : "bolehkah aku duduk di sini?"

kamu diam, tak mejawab, hanya bergeser memberikanku ruang..

aku bertanya : "bolehkah aku mendekat?"

kamu diam, tak menjawab, hanya diam saat aku bergerser di sampingmu..

aku bertanya : "boleh aku menggenggam tanganmu?"

kamu diam, tak menjawab, hanya menerima tanganku yang mengisi renggang jemarimu..

aku bertanya : "boleh aku bersandar di pundakmu?"

kamu diam, tak menjawab, hanya menyerahkan pundakmu padaku..

aku bertanya : "boleh aku memelukmu?

kamu diam, tak menjawab, hanya bergerak memutar tubuhmu, saat aku mendekapmu..

aku bertanya : “boleh aku menciummu?

kamu diam, tak menjawab, hanya pasrah saat bibirku menyentuh pipimu..

perlahan, ku bergerak, dari pipi, kamu tahu kemana tujuanku, tapi kamu tak menghentikanku..

ku kecup bibirmu, kamu diam..

ku tatap wajahmu, ku tatap matamu, matamu balas menatapku..

ku kecup lagi, lembut, dan lebih lama..

kau diam, kemudian membalas kecupanku..

kita berciuman, bergumul dalam kelembutan bibir yang bertaut..

lembut..

manis..

hangat…

hhh..

kita kembali berpelukan..

ku pejamkan mataku..

ku nikmati hangatnya dirimu..

ku dengarkan nyanyian debaranmu..

ku hirup dalam aromamu..

ku hela nafasku…

ku bisikan di telingamu..

“aku sayang kamu..”

kamu menghela nafas..

“ya, aku tahu, aku juga sayang kamu..”

aku kembali bertanya : “boleh aku minta hatimu?”

kamu diam, tak menjawab..

aku bertanya lagi : “boleh aku masuk dalam hatimu?”

kamu diam, tak menjawab..

hhh…

karena kita berdua sudah tahu jawabannya..

jawaban yang akan menyakitkan..

jadi nikmati saja saat ini, dan jangan pikirkan yang lain..

karena aku tahu, kau akan menjawab tidak..

lebih baik membisu daripada menyakiti..

Jakarta, 29 Juni 2010, 5.06 am

Tasya