My Sweet Little Oasis

" Reality depresses me.

I need to find fantasy worlds and escape in them. "

- Noel Fielding -

One of the reason i make this blog is for an escape.. My sweet sweet escape..
Escape from the rest of the world to find a peace of mind..
In this little oasis of my own..
This is an escape from reality where i can put my heart and my mind on something else other than what i have to deal in real world.
I can take some quality time to just erase all those unimportant nonsense.
And just for several minute focus on something i love.
In my oasis there is no place for worries.
I don't need to think about all that job-office-work-task related, i can forget my trouble for a nice moment, i don't need to stress on my relationship, i can relax about the future, and just have a moment for myself.
Like for instance today, doing a short quickie happy me time on this daily basic sort of boring office hours.
Instead of i wasting my time, waiting in vain on the clock to move a lil' bit faster toward the end of this day, i choose to spend my time here, writing about maybe something not so important but soothing me..
Writing this blog is like breathing in a fresh air.
But actually, it also feels like i'm cheating on an exam, a time corruption maybe.
But i don't really care.
From time to time, i think people need to take a short vacation on a busy day.
Only for the sake for better brain function.
Just take me for an example, placing myself surrounding by what i love the most, pouring down some emotion, and idea.
And i love it, i love my oasis.
I can feel the burst of joy in my heart every time i let myself free to chase my passion.
Free to let my mind go wild, and fly in a journey to immortality between words..

“Writing is a form of therapy; sometimes I wonder how all those who do not write, compose, or paint can manage to escape the madness, melancholia, the panic and fear which is inherent in a human situation.” 

― Graham Greene, Ways Of Escape ―

To be alone and die

" We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone.

Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion

for the moment that we're not alone. "

-  Orson Welles  -

A few days ago a family of mine is passed away.

I called her Ipo.

She was one of my grandma siblings, who live alone in France.

I wasn't that close to her since she lived distant and only come by once from time to time. So i rarely meet her.

But one thing that make me ponder is how sad and tragic the way she's gone.

She was living alone, all by herself in a far away land.

Doesn't have any children, and her husband already passed long time before her.

Far from his family and any close relative.

She was found died, after my Kukong (my grandma and ipo's brother) tried to reach her by phone but getting no answer, tried again next day and still could not reach her.

And then we asked someone to come and check on her.

That is when we found her already passed away.

My uncle said that she was fall on her bathroom and possibly having a heart attack.

Her body was finally found after 3 days.

To imagine someone who is a close relative to me having this kind of tragedy,
is something so sad.

I hope nobody else would have to face this in her/his lives.

To have someone there in every part of your live is a bless that i hope everyone can share the same joy.
No one deserve to be alone and die in such circumstances, by any reason.

This video is a lyrical dance,
taken from Bunheads: Season 1, Episode 13 "I'll Be Your Meyer Lansky"

I watched it very recently and it touched me deeply.

The song is from Erin Mckeown "You, Sailor"

Choreography by Marguerite Derricks.

Ipo, you'll always be alive, in our loving memory.

Love, Anger, Sad, and Cry

There is a moment in each person life, when they meet what we called love.
But how could something as great and beautiful as love could be defeated easily by anger.
How could you fall in love with a person in one time, and get so mad at them at another time.
Where all the love is gone?
Anger is something so small and shallow, it should be easily overcome by love.
When you love, you should feel an enormous feeling of care and affection.
Would you let your love feel sad and cry because of your anger?
Anger lead to nowhere but sad.
Totally in an opposite direction of love and its happiness.
I still haven't find a way to round up my thoughts around this.
Is it possible that all the love is just burn down by the fire of anger.
And the fire of your love is fade away by each tears come from those sadness.
I hope that love will always win.
And no more anger, sad and cry would have to come.

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